When ???!!!

When can i go out shopping n date with hubby like normal before? I really hope so much ~ If could a time jz u and me,then feeling so good ~ But i know is impossible ! Becoz reason nobody would help me caring my 3 babe . The feeling lonely of my hubby already 1 years sorry dear ! Already no accompany my dear outing night almost 2 years , Jz his friends accompany him,but friends also got partner left him one people.,..Sometimes pity of him ,...No choice have to wait their grow up first , This is my responsible , i m cannot selfish have to accompany my hubby, but abandon my child .This is my principle...I m thinking going to work but his said to me cannot ! My mind always thinks Why ????? Why don't let me out going to work ,I more prefer work earn some money to a better life , I like working life.But seem like cannot , he wont agree that me going out working ,he prefer me at home be a housewife ,and full time be mother and wife~ Lolz ! I m jealous of my friends that people are married can go out working like normal , no worried !